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   I freakin' miss Chris. I miss talking to him all the time. I miss his laugh; his smile; his witty sense of humor....

   I regret the things I've done and I loathe the negatives -- my "drama queenness"; the distance; the fact that I cared too much and still do. I hate that there are so many differences between us that there's just... seemingly no feasible way that it would ever work, namely 'cause I'm so weird and boring and dramatic and... pfff. I hate that I made him feel bad and probably pointed out more negatives when I should have highlighted more positives.....

   Looking back on it, the positives far outweighed the negatives, but I just... wasn't the right person. I've intentionally distanced myself from Twitter and Skype (well, with Skype it kind of can't be helped) so that I don't feel as pressured to complain on there anymore. Can't say I ever talk to the fellow anymore anyway, though, mainly 'cause I feel like I just... bother the living crap out of him now. Plus, there's nothing to talk about.

   Obviously, there's something seriously wrong with me if I am fully aware that I need to stop thinking about this (which I pretty much have; thank God for the Once-ler fandom), but it's been a good while and it still hurts. Stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid. *sigh* I'm stupid.

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Original image (which was cropped) can be found here: http://disneyscreencaps.com/caps/up-2009/77/